minors with kinks

On my discourse blog, I have two tags: minors with kinks and minors with sexualities, both of which contain people talking about all the ways in which their kinks and sexualities manifested when they were still teens, and how some people have had their kinks for as long as they can remember. Neither tag is very full, but sometimes they make me happy. It makes me feel less alone to know that having fantasies about sex and kink in some form or another for over half your life doesn't make me weird, or an outlier, or a victim-in-waiting. It's normal! I'm normal! I have a lot of messed up fantasies and kinks and it is all! perfectly fucking normal!
In general I'm not somebody who craves normalcy, but there are times when you need it. There are times when the worst possible thing is to be the only one. I made that tag to let other people know that they weren't alone, and that having kinks from a young age didn't make them predators or otherwise horrible people, and I guess it worked on me too. 
Mostly though, I get sad. I get sad about how sex-shamey the current tumblr attitude is, how it's so fucking popular to say that minors can't identify as asexual and see even inclusionists buy it. It's terrifying. So many antis are young, as young as me or younger, and so many of them are vulnerable to talk like this. I hate to imagine some anti figure out that writing and reading incest turns them on and go into a spiral of self loathing for a kink that is, to be frank, perfectly normal and completely harmless. Or, god forbid, they find they have rape fantasies. I consider myself to be progressive and accepting about kinks, but I felt ashamed of myself for nearly a month before I managed to break myself out of that cycle. 
This morning somebody sent me an anon telling me to stay away from kids, and I blocked them, but what I wanted to say was: I don't really like kids all that much. I wanted to say: kids scare me, and they don't shame. They don't deserve the likes of you policing their sexuality and their self-expression. They don't deserve to be abused by lgbt people in the same way their conservative parent might, if they were to discover the child masturbating. Nobody deserves this, but children especially don't. 
I want to tell these people who they're really hurting with talk like this, but I don't know how to get through to them. I don't know if I can; I feel sick going through their blogs for too long. I am not immune to their rhetoric, I still catch myself thinking I'm a pedophile. Because of the blog I run and the views I hold, and the ones I dare not air.
But more than anything I want for people like me to know that they aren't alone and they don't deserve to be hurt for having a sexuality. Even the ones of them that are antis. I think they're the ones who need to hear it the most.

A Note On Content And Interaction | last update: 2/3/19

Some facts about me

I'm Alice I'm a 17 y/o queer. they/them pronouns preferred (she and him are okay if you know me).

I talk about kink and sex and sexuality and queerness as it relates to me a lot, or at least I hope to, so if you don't want to see that you can filter the tag #filed under: nsfw. I do not mind adults following or interacting with me or any of my posts, and if I will let you know if I would prefer no interaction on any post of mine. 

I am on other websites: I change my tumblr url quite often; as of now, my main blog on tumblr is intimatopia. my fandom blog is spidergwensgf ecotheia tsvetaeva vanyapositive.

My interests include: queer stuff (history, reading, stories, poetry), child rights/youth rights things, autism and adhd and psychology in general (I intend to study psychology!), fiction and literature and fandom and the cultures that exist in and around it, anthropology, sex and kink (theory and meta, but I also read and write kink fic), abuse (the theory of it, and a lot of my writing also plays with ideas about abuse), writing, music, and art.

I write: the tag is #my writing. very long posts are tagged #filed under: essay. A lot of my writing is either sad or sexy or both. And my essays tend to revolve around tumblr discourse, though I will try to include context. 

My discord tag is available on request, and I try to respond to each comment I get on my posts here, but even if I don't please know that I do read them. If you want to talk on discord, I'm there a lot more, and I am open to being rambled at, or poked to ramble about whatever you want. if you're new to my journal, feel free to comment on old posts. 

If you add me to your access list/subscribe to me, please leave a comment on this post introducing yourself so I can add you back! also, if you're subscribed to me but at some place on your page you go "minors don't follow/interact please clarify how that works with regard to the 17 y/o you just subscribed to (me) because it drives me crazy skdjfhkf like just. tell me if you don't want me to add you back/subscribe to you.",