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Carys | 17 | they/them | neurodivergent | queer | person of colour | writer | artist | cat mom.
extended cut:
I'm autistic, adhd, and depressed. And I'm queer, which is short for bisexual/aegosexual/arospec//transneutral/agender/nonbinary/genderfluid/genderqueer.
fandoms:
they change as my hyperfixations shift, but;
bungou stray dogs, all for the game, marvel, heartstopper comic, the umbrella academy, b99, the good place, hilda, various sundry books, tv shows, movies, and comics that I don't currently recall which means they're not that important.
content note:
- let me know in a comment to this post if you need anything tagged, and how to tag for it.
- I post about nsfw stuff and there's a content filter for that here.
- I post about whatever catches my eye. this ranges from my life, internet discourse, mental health blogging, social skills, fandom, fic recs, and so on.
a note on interaction:
- you can comment on any post you like, really, as long as it isn't obviously a problem that was temporary and has been resolved by the time you get there.
- if I request that someone not argue with me on a post, and you still want to argue, ask me if I'm up to it. generally there's a reason why I ask not to be argued with
- I tend to let comments pile up and then respond to them all at once.
- if you're adding me/subscribing to me (which you can do regardless of age), please leave a comment on this post introducing yourself. it helps me to know where you came from and whether to add you back.
other stuff:
- if you're interested in tagging for me, I blacklist #carys dont look. I don't want to see anything that tangentially mentions [NO]MAPs (it's very bad for my mental health). Visual depictions of gore are also bad. I have bad reactions to talk about climate change and religiosity. you don't have to tag for me, but please let me know if you can't.
elsewhere:
- main tumblr / fandom tumblr / discourse tumblr
- ao3
- twitter
- instagram
- discord tag available on request
a few things
Jul. 4th, 2020 01:19 pm- an ex-friend is on dreamwidth now, which makes me think returning is a bad idea, but also what the fuck i can do what i like fuck you
- i am now into other things and my dreamwidth reading page is completely unconnected to my interests. that's not a bad thing, but it does make reading it rather tedious.
- tumblr updated its website and now everything sucks and xkit might not be able to fix it and this is so upsetting
- i use twitter. i hate twitter
features of new account, hopefully
- me talking more
- more nsfw content, since that is no longer illegal
- more trying to locate my interests, more figuring out how that works on dreamwidth
- better tagging system
- absolutely no stalking ex-friend. in fact i do not even know what his username is. it's somewhere in my brain but i am NOT going to dig it up! i am not! i speak it into existence
crawling out of my hibernation to declare that I have officially posted 206k words this year to ao3!!
( more rambling )
( more rambling )
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Jul. 11th, 2019 12:19 pmI don't like this post but I can't articulate why. although I think it has something to do with this article
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Jul. 10th, 2019 08:20 pmI don't think my friend realizes that my goodwill is in fact exhaustible and it is especially exhaustible when I'm running on empty already. like you can't just keep digging in me for patience and kindness and comfort and give nothing back and expect that to be a sustainable state of affairs.
I wish I had more. but I fucking don't, and I'm TIRED, and if this doesn't end this relationship is going to crash and burn really hard because I only have so much to give and unless they get with that state of affairs really fucking fast I'm going to do something drastic and regrettable
I wish I had more. but I fucking don't, and I'm TIRED, and if this doesn't end this relationship is going to crash and burn really hard because I only have so much to give and unless they get with that state of affairs really fucking fast I'm going to do something drastic and regrettable
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Jul. 7th, 2019 11:41 amMAKING CARRD.CO WEBSITES IS ADDICTIVE
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I've made two so far, and I'm definitely more proud of the second one than the first one but AAAA it's FUN? I LIKE DOING IT? it's just ;; tingly......
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I wrote like...1.6k + 0.9k words yesterday and somehow still feel like I haven't written a single one. also, my laptop is gunked with some weird thing that messes w the ctrl key and makes it hard to type. AND my horny brain checked tf out so I haven't even written any porn. cheers.
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hellcation might be over, but now I have school and ten million assignments (4) to be submitted at the end of this month and I don't know what they are aaaaaahhhhhhhhHHHHHHHH
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I've made two so far, and I'm definitely more proud of the second one than the first one but AAAA it's FUN? I LIKE DOING IT? it's just ;; tingly......
I wrote like...1.6k + 0.9k words yesterday and somehow still feel like I haven't written a single one. also, my laptop is gunked with some weird thing that messes w the ctrl key and makes it hard to type. AND my horny brain checked tf out so I haven't even written any porn. cheers.
hellcation might be over, but now I have school and ten million assignments (4) to be submitted at the end of this month and I don't know what they are aaaaaahhhhhhhhHHHHHHHH
a friend is looking to get over rape related trauma and hopes that reading accounts by real people (of any gender) who enjoy PiV sex would help. does anyone know of such accounts? please give me links xo
a post about dazai
Jun. 7th, 2019 06:23 pmbasically just some rambling about Dazai and objectification feels I threw at a friend earlier today
+ links to the four (FOUR) Dazai/objectification fics I have written
+ some talking about the fic I am currently writing and kinfeels related to that.
+ emotions
( tw: rape and abuse )
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( kinfeels + bsd spoilers )
( cw: emotions and general self-disgust )
+ links to the four (FOUR) Dazai/objectification fics I have written
+ some talking about the fic I am currently writing and kinfeels related to that.
+ emotions
( tw: rape and abuse )
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( kinfeels + bsd spoilers )
( cw: emotions and general self-disgust )
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Jun. 4th, 2019 02:17 pm( self harm, suicidal ideation, self hatred )
i strongly debated whether i should post this at all and i'm still not sure - maybe i'll take the post down in a few days or private it
i strongly debated whether i should post this at all and i'm still not sure - maybe i'll take the post down in a few days or private it
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May. 27th, 2019 11:44 pmpokes my head up from the depths of hell (Mumbai summer) to talk about a take I saw...months back.
( cw discussions of kink and slavery )
( cw discussions of kink and slavery )
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May. 19th, 2019 07:04 pmtoday I had an epiphany while posting my fic that the question I was really asking and attempting to answer was "can you write a nonbinary character who does not even realize that they're nonbinary?" and I don't know if I succeeded or what that means but writing this fic was so much fun and I am glad I did.
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May. 10th, 2019 12:13 pmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I've written more in the past like....10 days than I have all year, I think. I think. I don't know.
but here's a roundup of the written, the in progress, and the posted.
waiting to be written
- fics for odazai week 2019
- a fic where Dazai gets turned into a kid and the ADA is confused and they have to bring in Chuuya because Chuuya is the only person apart from Mori that Dazai knows/remembers.
- sloppy seconds fic
in progress
- girl!Dazai fic | 11k
- trans!Dazai fic | nearly 2k
the posted
this day in history | 1.2k Oda & Ango & Dazai - different first meetings | T
a soft process | 1.8k brainwashing? conditioning? I don't know | E
that one last tender place | 2.1k angsty wingfic | T
I've written more in the past like....10 days than I have all year, I think. I think. I don't know.
but here's a roundup of the written, the in progress, and the posted.
waiting to be written
- fics for odazai week 2019
- a fic where Dazai gets turned into a kid and the ADA is confused and they have to bring in Chuuya because Chuuya is the only person apart from Mori that Dazai knows/remembers.
- sloppy seconds fic
in progress
- girl!Dazai fic | 11k
- trans!Dazai fic | nearly 2k
the posted
this day in history | 1.2k Oda & Ango & Dazai - different first meetings | T
a soft process | 1.8k brainwashing? conditioning? I don't know | E
that one last tender place | 2.1k angsty wingfic | T
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May. 6th, 2019 06:25 pm4 gifs I spend a LOT of time thinking about. like.....a lot.
one: this gif from mitski's music video for townie
two: this incredibly tender scene
three: this one, which i first saw while listening to fallingforyou by the 1975 and changed my goddamn life
four: this gif of Dazai Osamu from bsd which gives me indescribable emotions
all gifs lead to my tumblogs. the second one is lightly nsfw
one: this gif from mitski's music video for townie
two: this incredibly tender scene
three: this one, which i first saw while listening to fallingforyou by the 1975 and changed my goddamn life
four: this gif of Dazai Osamu from bsd which gives me indescribable emotions
all gifs lead to my tumblogs. the second one is lightly nsfw
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May. 5th, 2019 12:43 pmI want to learn how to write meta. if you have any tips on writing meta (and I do mean like Writing Meta like how do you make it into a readable post) and are willing to share them I would love to hear it
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Apr. 30th, 2019 10:23 pmpersonal update of sorts because I haven't been around much
- I wrote two fics while I was gone, and one of them I'm even proud of. people keep asking me for sequels to this fic where the ADA confronts Mori and I'm more than a little annoyed at that. confronting Mori would be terrible on Dazai's mental health, and not every narrative of surviving needs to be end in 'confronting' and 'punishing' one's abuser, and if you wanna write them feel free but I am not ever going to with this fic not least because people apparently want it so badly. also I put so much of myself into writing Dazai that I'm half him right now, and I KNOW that confronting Mori would be the Very Worst Thing for him, and right now writing Dazai-centric angst would be tantamount to self-harm and I try not to do that these days.
I also changed my ao3 username from nerdflighter to intimatopia
- I've been more active on twitter lately
- I got into the bungou stray dogs fandom and fell headfirst into kinning Dazai Osamu...anyway please talk to me about bsd I have Emotions
- I wrote two fics while I was gone, and one of them I'm even proud of. people keep asking me for sequels to this fic where the ADA confronts Mori and I'm more than a little annoyed at that. confronting Mori would be terrible on Dazai's mental health, and not every narrative of surviving needs to be end in 'confronting' and 'punishing' one's abuser, and if you wanna write them feel free but I am not ever going to with this fic not least because people apparently want it so badly. also I put so much of myself into writing Dazai that I'm half him right now, and I KNOW that confronting Mori would be the Very Worst Thing for him, and right now writing Dazai-centric angst would be tantamount to self-harm and I try not to do that these days.
I also changed my ao3 username from nerdflighter to intimatopia
- I've been more active on twitter lately
- I got into the bungou stray dogs fandom and fell headfirst into kinning Dazai Osamu...anyway please talk to me about bsd I have Emotions
