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Mar. 6th, 2019 12:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nerdflighterman i really love exam week.........no motivation, extreme distress, procrastination, pain, feelings of guilt and low self esteem............the works. this happens every year around my finals and it's happening this year too and i really, really fucking hate it. i want die. im also too tired to do anything about that.
i uhh. ive been trying to get an adhd diagnosis that would allow me to have accommodations for a long time, and this month - this past month, february, was the one year anniversary of me trying and failing to get a diagnosis and it's just deeply disheartening to know that i'll never have the support i need to succeed in the fields i want to succeed in because theres only so much i can do for myself, and theres only so much support i can get from friends online, and it isnt enough.
i uhh. ive been trying to get an adhd diagnosis that would allow me to have accommodations for a long time, and this month - this past month, february, was the one year anniversary of me trying and failing to get a diagnosis and it's just deeply disheartening to know that i'll never have the support i need to succeed in the fields i want to succeed in because theres only so much i can do for myself, and theres only so much support i can get from friends online, and it isnt enough.
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Date: 2019-03-06 10:15 am (UTC)I don't think you'll "never" have that support. I know it seems that way - lord do I know how it seems that way - but things change, they really do! My first attempt at getting a dx failed too because the researcher decided I "wasn't ADHD, just impulsive", then when I went to another doctor he basically went "well of fucking course you have ADHD, oh my god" after one session. Having a disability is bullshit in how much work you have to put into managing it and even convincing people it's real, but it really does get easier with practice and experience.
*hugs again* if you would like advice for How To Make Studying Happen With ADHD, I can tell you what's worked for me (with the caveat that those things may not work for you because different people, different needs).